Dahil miss ko na si Miho ♥♥♥

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Everyone is excited about having a semestral break. Who wouldn’t be? AT last, after one semester (equivalent to five months!) all our hardships will all be paid off. We will be free from never ending school stuff~ projects, homeworks and assignments, activities, groupings, quizzes, tests, oral exams, midterms, finals, and so on and so forth. It’s such a relief. But for us? Mass Communications students? We’re not YET free. Hinahabol pa kami ng never ending requirements for our major. Its not that I regret being here, and taking up my major, it’s just that, I want to have a break. At least a week man lang, or two! I don’t want to be irresponsible, I don’t want to give my superiors and classmates a negative impression, but hello! Sila nagbabakasyon na! Tayo andito pa din. Kulang na lang i-pack up na lahat ng gamit at tumira sa school o kung saan mang bahay. I love group works. I love being with my friends. Most importantly, I love what I’m doing. But sometimes, just like the computer, my mind automatically  shuts down. And when it is shut down, it probably needs motivation. What’s my motivation? THIS SEMBREAK! I was expecting that I could do various home chores while I’m not at school. I want to have a general cleaning. I want to clean the house and my room. I want to do the laundry. I want to iron our clothes. I want to do cooking. I want to take care my nephew. I just want to be at the house, no more no less. Aside from the fact that I will have a time for myself and for my family, I could save more money! MONEY! Money these days are very hard to find, and earn. Nag birthday ako pero I wasn’t able to give myself a birthday present. Why? Kasi maso-short ako sa pera. Lots of things to pay at school. Plus, syempre, pamasahe at pambaon pa. Coke float nga minsan napagdadamutan ko pa sarili ko. Now, I’m quite worried about my tuition fee. Hayy. Buhay. My friends often told me na ginusto ko naman daw to. Yes. That’s a fact. Ginusto ko to. Pero sino ba naman ang gugustuhing wala kang bakasyon di ba? 

Bakasyon lang ang problema ko. Too shallow. Perhaps, you’re mocking at me now. Pero I know that some people will relate to me, lalo na kung college student ka. 

Sorry. I can’t post this on Facebook. 

*Paalala: I just want to reiterate, hindi ako nagrereklamo na pinasok ko itong posisuon ko na ito. In fact, I’m loving it. Ang ayaw ko lang e mahahaluan ng work and studies and natitira kong free days. Guys, November 2 na pasukan. Sa Tuesday pa finals namin sa major namin. Thursday ang registration. Malamang late enrollees block namin. Sayang P100. Okay lang kung non-paying ako, e paying ako e.

Ayun lang. Hay. ☺

… that matters most. Big things come in small packages, right? :)

Yeah. So true :)

Ashyon’s wacky pose!

My first post after a long time. 

That cute kiddo is my nephew. Hahaha. ♥

I’m not a mama’s girl. But I do admit that it is hard for me to live and continue on with my life without my mom. Well, she’s actually leaving for America She is going to seek greener pastures. But for me, there is really no need for her to go abroad. The reason why she is going there is primarily because it is her mom’s (my granny) request. I can’t blame that. Every mom wants their child to be by their side. But I just can’t see the point, neither I can understand why she has to leave. I mean, yes, we’re not that well off. We also experience poverty and obstacles. But that doesn’t hinder us to go on with our lives. My sisters have both graduated and are both professional. I’m in my third year in college and in the span of 1 and a half year, I will be out of school permanently. What I’m trying to say is that, I don’t want my mom to leave us. I know that she wants to see America. She wants to experiences what her siblings have been experiencing. But you know, it is just so hard. Just by the thought of not having her here in our house seems so unreal. So lonely. 

Who is going to cook for us? Who will help me do the house chores? Who will I text whenever I needed help or whenever I’m at school or going home? But beyond that, there is a deeper reason why I don’t want my mom to leave. Without her, everything will be incomplete. I’m used to say, “Ma, alis na ako”. “Ma, good night”. “Ma, pauwi na ako”. And now, nothing. 

We tried to convince her not to go there anymore. I think, she also doesn’t want to go. It’s just that she cannot refuse her mom’s request. However, what is more important is that she will always be safe and healthy, no matter what.

I may seem so shallow. But then again, I’m always a cry baby. I can’t be away from my loved ones.  I cannot post this to my Facebook or Twitter account because a lot of people can read this, even my relatives. So Tumblr, spare me. I know its been months since I last opened you, and here I’m, writing down all my resentments. 

This would be hard. Perhaps a lot harder that I could ever imagine. But what can I do? Nothing and no one can stop her. I’m just wishing the best of luck to my mom, and I hope she’ll do great there, and I also hope that we’ll be fine here without her.

Thanks Tumblr. You are indeed very reliable. 

I’ll try to open you as much as I can. And I’ll also try not to cry too often.

On Saturday, everything will be different. I expect it. 

God Bless us ♥

the country itself :)

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